I have never really thought of myself as a big guy in fact for all of my life I have for the most part been a very skinny kid. Now at 32 years old, I find that I have this desire to gain more weight. Recently I was shocked to discover how I looked when I reviewed a picture someone took of me. I could not believe my eyes. I looked sick, emaciated even. My clothes hung awkwardly and my neck seemed rail thin while my head was large. It was difficult to look at this image and not wonder what had happened to me over the years.
At that moment I made a very important decision. I decided that from now on, I am going to eat. While it may seem like a strange thing to say, for me it really was a pivotal moment. Most of my life I refrained from eating. It was my way of staying focused and sharp. As a teen I did not eat lunch most days in high-school because I never had the money to pay for food. Then in college, to afford the cost of tuition and fees, I refused to eat. As I moved into adult hood, part-time low paying jobs combined with graduate school and then goals of paying off mortgages and cars compelled me to not eat once again. Well today I am proud to announce that I am eating.